From Hero to zero

How does one get here? How does your perception of a person go from holding them on a pedestal to being almost revolted by what the person is? How does one go from being a superhero to being the bad guy?

I mean don't get me wrong, I know it's stupid to hold people on a pedestal. 'To err is human' right? And putting people in a shrine is a sure way to be disappointed. I understand that. What I don't understand is how your view of a person can go from one extreme to the other. It's like all the good things you thought the person had disappeared and instead their character contains all the aspects you really detest.

So how does it happen? Is it just that people change? Is it the things they go through? The pain, traumas and hard times they survived that changed them drastically? Or is it us that change? Is it the things that we had to go through that changed us so much that we're no longer compatible with the people we adored before?

And the most ironic thing is that we still love them. Even when we realise they're not the person we thought they were, even when our admiration turned to pity we still love them. We've already been ensnared into the trap. They've engraved themselves into our lives too much, they're a part of us and we can't do anything about it.

So we find ourselves having to live with the fact that we can love people and yet not like them. And the only decision left to take is not whether to stop love them or not nor is it if we're capable of cutting the strings and leave or stay, but whether we can learn to live with the facts or whether it will destroy us slowly.

 We can run away, we can put thousands of miles between us and them, but we only need a phone call from them asking for help and we're on the first plane back.

And the worst part is that we can never tell them how deep the resentment we feel really is. How can you watch the person you love break slowly as you explain that you hate their attitude, you detest their voice, that you couldn't care less about their opinions on everything and everyone. How can you watch their face crumble and the tears running down their face?

After all it’s not their fault either that they went from hero to zero bit by bit just by doing what they always did.