I lust after
lives I read about in books. I lust after places I see in films. I cry over
people I have never met. I miss people who do not exist. I fall in love a
million times, I get my heart broken, and I get my hopes up only to be dashed
again over and over again. I feel regret and embarrassment and butterflies in
my stomach just from watching a show.
How can a simple
song throw me so off balance? How can one book make me rethink all my decisions?
How can a film fill my heart with so much emotion?
How can I be
nostalgic for something I never had? How can I miss a moment I never lived? How
can I feel more emotion, more human, more alive, while reading a few pages of a
book than I can during the rest of my day? Why am I numb to the real life but
so sensitive to the fictional world?
Is it a Wizard
of Oz syndrome? Do I switch from the grey Kansas to the colourful Oz? How can I
switch back to gray, when I got a taste of colour? It’s like having to take
food supplements when you’re used to the delicious powerful taste that colours
your mouth at the first touch.
I wish I wasn’t
in Kansas anymore, Toto.
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